ME & MY DESTINY

A lifetime of fear, hurt, confusion, emotional struggles on a daily basis accompanied a long list of physical dis- ease such as-

 

*A diagnosis/ label for severely poor mental health by age 17.. 

This was the catalyst to begin a journey of decades long, asking "why? What is the source? How can this heal?"

I never stopped searching for the answers, to emotional & physical balance & health..

And I discovered that it all leads back to the brain.

 

* CPTSD  ( Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ) & PTSD diagnoses.

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*A diagnosis of ME ( Myalgic Encephalitis )/ CFS ( Chronic Fatigue Syndrome ) in 1992, at age 21.

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* ADHD ( type 3 )

 

* Depression & Anxiety with suicidal tendencies.

 

* OCD & intrusive thoughts.

 

* Multiple gut inflammation issues- IBS, Leaky Gut

 

* Four life threatening experiences with cancer.

 

* 7.5 year sleep insomnia due to restless arms & legs.

 

* Sleep Apnea

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*A suspected brain tumour due to severe & debilitating migraines for almost a decade

 

* Mobility issues due to physical injuries.

 

Every disease on this list is now healed through a multi faceted integrated approach.

I still have weakness with mobility, due to the physical damage caused by being in survival system for so long and being tuned out to pain all those years. 

 

The link between birth trauma, early adversity and emotional & physical dis-ease, dis orders, auto immune conditions

& syndromes has been proven since around 1998

& yet it is still not recognised in the mainstream. 

 

I am now a safe, happy, healthy living example of how we can heal, when given the best advice, guidance & encouragement

to have autonomy of our mind & body.

 

 I am keen to share my experiences of the metaphysical relationship between mental & physical dis-ease and

to inspire others to heal. 

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Who is telling you that you can heal..? Who is showing you that you can heal?

 I am!

You can heal! 

You deserve to heal!

 

When people or dogs experience adversity or extreme stress in their lives their mind & body systems

need to go through the healing of that trauma in a sequenced way.

We can’t/ don’t just ‘release' it & feel better. 

 

As a result of the healing process of our APEs™️ Trauma Recovery Program we are getting dogs off of Prozac etc,

when prescription of these drugs are at an all time high sadly.

Auto immune conditions, gut issues & allergies are also healing as part of the process of creating wholeness.

We specialise in canine anxiety of all kinds.

 

My wholistic journey to health began 40 years ago aged 15 when I adopted a plant based lifestyle &

really fell in love with whole foods & nutrition.

 

The various physical dis-eases I went on to experience reinforced this when at age 21 I was one of the first in the UK

to be diagnosed with ME/ CFS in 1992.

 

 I was blessed to have been advised, treated, & supported back to health by

the wonderful  Dr Jan De Vries ( eminent & renowned naturopath ).

I had been unable to walk for almost 6 months.

 

Despite living such a healthy life, free from processed food, checking every ingredient/ label

and always cooking from scratch,

I still struggled with many intermittent health issues, life threatening at times.

 

Now as a Functional Behavioural Developmental Neuroimmunologist, I have come to innerstand why despite

my clean eating lifestyle,

all of the supplements, lotions & potions I consumed were never going to make enough of a difference to heal me...

A waste of money.

 

Until we view the body has a whole, bringing function & balance back to each & every organ system,

we will chase dis ease until it destroys us.

 

We see people putting pressure on their bodies every day in the name of fitness,

which just isn't necessary if our bodies are functioning to their postural potential with a balanced brain

& regulated nervous system.

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Every client on our Neuro Development Program, naturally gains energy,

tones up, loses weight, gets stronger without an exercise regime.

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I’ve had many experiences of mental health professionals & various forms of therapy from counselling, CBT, psychiatry & many holistic modalities but none of these helped heal me.

These professionals are very narrow in their field of observation & treatment.

I know of many counsellors who are not aware of the function of our nervous system or of trauma

& its effect on an individual.. Let alone, how to heal at root cause level.

Few do the psychodynamic inner work themselves either.

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We have the knowledge, experience & ability to improve anyone's life with our brain balance approach.

 

 I begin my third year of training as a psychotherapist in Sept.

 

Clinical mental health professionals serve the purpose for diagnosis ( pathologisation ),

although at such a young age, that ‘label’ just meant a life of toxic shame for me.

If only they had told me that the cause was birth & childhood trauma and an immature, dysregulated nervous system,

that it could be healed via neuroplasticity.

I learned temporary coping strategies & tried medicating which had many awful side effects

but I wanted to feel better,

heal fully..

I just didn’t know how.

 

I struggled on for decades with poor health interfering in my life plans, few knew, I hid it well.

I dropped out of a university degree in Animal Sciences, Behaviour & Husbandry whilst on track for a 1st.

I missed out on experiencing motherhood.

Never able to achieve any of my dreams.. or so it seemed..

 

In 2011, I had a  life changing experience which was devastating back then,

but now I see it as a life healing & fulfilling blessing.

I had no choice but to find a trauma therapist who could help me make sense of my life.

To help me heal the confusion & pain..

I didn’t want to live on.. I didn't believe I could..

This therapist not only literally saved my life, but helped me on my path to grow & develop

into the balanced, whole ‘grown up’ I am today!

 

Finding this integrated, psychodynamic/ neuro developmental approach to trauma healing was exactly what I needed.

A bottom up approach.

Healing on many levels, undoing the years of programming, codependency, enmeshment, unhelpful behaviours,

thoughts & perspectives.

Whilst at the same time, healing the nervous system & 'growing' my brain. 

 

The foundation for all of this healing was a neurological development program,

which paved the way for deeper growth on a neurophysiological level.

 

Feeling the incredible change this was creating in my mind & body, I began to wonder how this could work for dogs?

 

I was a dog trainer at that time but my two Dogue De Bordeauxs had emotional issues towards other dogs,

which I would have described as ‘aggression’ back then.

I quickly learnt that this is an inappropriate, outdated & simply unhelpful label..

Just like my own mental health diagnosis 30 years previously.

 

It was a Mastiff called Destiny, described as ‘brain damaged’, who was the catalyst for me finding the world of wolves &

I trained in the field of wolf and dog development, primal language, communication, psychology & behaviour.

It aligned with everything I was already experiencing in my life & also with my dreams of creating

a healing centre for dogs & people. 

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After qualifying as an instructor, I chose to carve my own path as I had

 begun to create my own canine trauma healing program- APEs (Adverse Puppyhood Experiences) TM. 

 

What a beautiful perspective I was viewing the world of dogs from- one where I was actually doing the work,

not just trauma informed, teaching about neuroscience & trauma,

but actually living it, feeling it firsthand & sharing it with others.

I was your trauma dog!

 

Destiny quickly became my first schooling dog, within a month of starting the healing process &

together we went on to heal hundreds of dogs, who like her had experienced early trauma.

 

She passed in 2022 aged 12 years. I am forever grateful for all she taught me & she lives on in every dog we meet & heal.

 

Having begun to study & innerstand trauma, child & canine development over a decade ago,

I worked with my therapist, to begin to create a program for dogs which is modelled on the healing process for people.

 

It has been in research & practice now for 8 years. We have intellectual property rights for this program & have named it as our unique APEs TM ( Adverse Puppyhood Experiences ) Canine Trauma Recovery Program.

 

It is an incredibly beautiful & successful process for healing dogs who have had disruptions

in their development of many kinds.

 

I have known my best friend & colleague Jane Gill for around 10 years. We met through our days of dog training.

She was also unable to find the answers she needed in conventional dog training to bring balance

to her puppy farm dogs either.

 

She too found the world of wolves & primal dogs & we have walked this healing path together.

 

Jane began Psychodynamic Trauma Therapy 7 years ago & is now flourishing along with her dogs.

She has been an incredible gift on my healing journey.

Walking parallel lives, through beautiful times & the bumps on the road, we continue to help each other grow & work together to bring healing from wolves, to dogs & people.  

 

After years of empathically guiding, holding & balancing the human aspect of the family as a Canine Trauma Expert,

whilst healing their dogs with emotional issues...

I felt that unless folk were able to feel the process/results for themselves,

they would never really innerstand the importance of the profound & powerful healing we were creating.

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We are so far from the mainstream dog world of 'training', control & 'tricks'.

We don't focus on behaviour as something to suppress or control,

we know behaviour as a communication of emotional & biological needs.

We are unique in what we do.

 

Therefore, I decided to train & qualify in Neurological Development Therapy- Functional Behavioural Neuroimmunology

for people ( infants, children and adults ). 

 

I am also an

 NLP Practitioner

 Hypnotherapist

 Life Coach and Wellness Guide

Breath Work Practitioner

(specialising in trauma release)

 Firewalking Instructor

 Glasswalking Instructor

 Empowerment Coach

&

3rd year trainee Psychotherapist

Trainee NVR Consultant

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The Inner Wild Development Centre for Dogs & People now offers a multi faceted approach to mental, emotional and social growth & development for all via our extensive services.

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ACEs & APEs™️ are the greatest unacknowledged public health threat facing society.

 

ADHD, Dyslexia, Dyspraxia, Autism, Tourettes & other hemispheric brain imbalances are now increasing exponentially.

 

We specialise in these 'disorders', along with birth trauma & adoption trauma of babies, mothers & caregivers...

our results are incredible.

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​When I began to make sense of my painful, confusing life & discovered the science behind it all

and that there was a resolution,

I assumed others would want to lose their ‘dis ease labels’ & become well too.

 

However, I found few wanted to hear.. This was a massive learning for me.

Something I have only begun to find peace with via spirituality. 

    

The journey of healing is not for everyone in this lifetime, but your child & dog will definitely thank you!

 

What I consider to be ‘best practice’, I now innerstand to be a movement.

 

We have always spoken of how it is that “by choosing to heal your dog, a part of you heals too...”

 

Now we encourage-

“by choosing to heal ourselves, we heal our family, our community & all we connect with on this lifetime journey..”

 

It takes vulnerability & courage to look at this issue of ACEs & APEs™️  & say 

 

“This is all of us!”

 

The Inner Wild 

are the 

‘Movement for Change!’